I Won't Be Missing You This Christmas

i've been so busy
with the job
women
and self

the new me doesn't have time

he is a very busy man
pre-occupied with hope

distracted by tomorrow
and trying to pretend that the past was
something else

grandma did not get ran over by a reindeer
but by the ego of a grandson that can
no longer
waste time regretting what he forgot to say

"you were my best friend"

"you were the greatest influence in my life"

"when you are gone
i will miss you always"