Groceries

there are 11 bags of frozen broccoli
in my freezer
but
it won't be enough

i kneel before a food processor
every morning
praying to my smoothies
the same shitty prayers i used to give
to god

somewhere between breakfast and dinner
i will realise
i cannot be saved

there are 6 cans of black beans
on my counter top
but
it won't be enough

there is no meal that can nourish a soul
disgusted with itself

there are 2 cans of diet soda
in my fridge
but
that just might be enough

to fool myself into thinking
i'm not thirsty

to keep me from chewing my arm off

to trick my tongue into believing
i am good for me