Boys Don't... Quote Cure Songs

i.

when i left
or when you left
or however either one of us tell people
it happened

it
hurt

i wasn't shocked
i kind of expected it
but it still
hurt

and i still think about you
when i play Sisters Of Mercy cds

and i still smell you
anytime Joy Division comes on

and i regret it
and i wish i could do it over
and i wish you were the girl i never let go
and not the first

but
you
were
and i gotta suck it up because
Boys Don't... quote Cure songs


ii.

any ol' way
i just wanted you to know that
kissing you
on the stairs of the Milwaukee Public Library
doing laundry
in that place that used to be next to Comet
dancing
to my first retro-night at Mad Planet
and losing my "virginity"
well
it was special

it wasn't amazing
and that's on me

i was scared
inexperienced
inadequate
insecure

but
it was just like it was supposed to be

it wasn't like the movies
or the poems
or the Depeche Mode record you were playing

it was real

anything else i could say about it would be hyperbole
and it was better than hyperbole

so i won't say it was
just like a dream
because
we were
awake

and i won't say it was
just like paradise because
that shit doesn't exist

and even though you looked like an angel
i won't say it was...

well
boys don't quote Cure songs


iii.

that was a long time ago
and i've written more about women and regrets
than either of the two
alone

i'm not trying to say that you're the last girl i loved
or that i've ever really loved any
just that
i
do remember

and it's hard to
forget

and tonight
as i creeped through your
facebook photos
i'm reminded of a night i creeped your
myspace photos

it's been two social networks
three presidents
four cities
five times in, and back out of recovery
since i let you go

but
i've been looking so long
at these pictures of you
that i almost...
forgot that boys don't quote Cure songs