Heather Hendrickson

i got used to being afraid early on
looking at you
wanting you
and not saying a damn word

it became a habit
to keep my mouth shut
and doubt myself
let things slip away that were right there within my grasp

i don't know what would have happened if i'd told you
how
much
i was
in love with you

i don't know if you felt it too
and i don't know if i was just young and foolish
but
it's the not knowing that still bothers me