1994

whatever there was
died
and something else took its
place

the years that followed brought
a violent beating in the street
a dead man
and a woman torn apart by addiction

it was a lot to deal with
and i have never been good at dealing
with anything

i don't want to say i was permanently
traumatized by those events
because i don't want anyone
feeling sorry for me

but i don't want to say that i wasn't
because i don't want to
lie

so instead
maybe i should just say nothing
put on some Mazzy Star
or The Crow soundtrack
close my eyes
and pretend it's
1994