Birthday

i didn't call her
because i felt like being alone
and celebratory sex wasn't going to be enough
to validate another year of suffering myself

another notch in the belt
just makes me think twice
about the next piece of cake

another revolution around the sun
and i just wish the sun would go away

wish the sky would stay dark
wish the moon was always there
wish i never had to miss the stars

but
if i was that serious about it
i probably would've bought some candles